Today is better. My body is BLAH, but... my mind is in a better place. :) Thank you Lord for being my STRENGTH.

Today would be a good example of just how low it can get. I am lower than low today!
I think it would be nice to not exist at this point. I am not being a good wife or mother. I am actually pretty useless. I feel physically miserable and mentally incompetent. I have no one to talk to and no one to spend any time with and nothing worth doing.

THROWING... as in pottery... :) I do not THROW things at people or anything of the sort... :) I totally mean 'throwing' on a wheel :)

humph... I am BORED and I am TIRED and I am DEPRESSED. ODD... I know!
I want to be at class throwing... but instead I am home with a sick child - waiting on Jeremy to return home from work. I need to throw at least 8 things this evening!

My daughter is dancing to worship music... how can it get any better?! :) I love YOU LORD... and I love you Isabelle!

God is calling me... very loud and clear He is calling me. A few years ago I was told I would be ministering to women. Okay... I could NEVER imagine it... I had put it on the back burner of my mind. HOWEVER... now I know it is supposed to be the women of MEXICO. HOW... I live in Texas... my husband would like to continue to live in Texas...
I have two children... how is a mother of two children supposed to go to Mexico on any regular basis?! Does God call a mother of two children to leave her children on a regular basis to minister to women in another country?! Does God call a woman and not call her husband?!
O WAIT... 9 years ago Jeremy was the one being called... but not to missions... and I did not feel called at ALL!
Why would God call one of us at one point... and another one of us at another point... why is this all super confusing?!
I am sad. I am confused. I want to do what God wants me to do. BUT HOW?!

hum... EVERY ONE... (all the bloggers... okay MOST off the bloggers I know) are off to BLISSDOM09 - wonder if I could ever be included?! I do not really fit the title... bliss and all you know?! Anyway... I wish everyone of you super exciting times... maybe I will see you there in the future?!

:) If you have not figured it out I LOVE ?!

Dave Ramsey said Dave Ramsey said Dave Ramsey said... GOSH when Dave Ramsey said to pick up part time work to help pay off debt - did he have any clue how LIFE INTERRUPTING it would be?! Does he not know a gal like me has too many obligations ALREADY?! I mean... how do I tell a new employer I cannot work Monday nights because I coach basketball for 3 basketball teams? cannot work Wednesday night because I am taking a ceramics class? cannot work Friday mornings because I have MOPS? AND I cannot work Saturday because I have games for the 3 basketball teams?

They have one simple response... YOU'RE FIRED.

Now... before everyone panics... I have decided to NOT tell anyone I have all these commitments :) I am thinking I will just fly by the seat of my pants... BECAUSE I LOVE to send my self tail spinning into a mental breakdown! YIPPEE! Mental breakdowns are super fun!

OH... and did I mention I need off by 3pm because my children get out of school... BUT I can certainly return after 4:30 when my husband returns home from work *wink*

BLAH!